"Do one thing every day that scares you"

Dear, 

how many times we've come across this quote by Eleanor Roosevelt written below the photos of people bungee-jumping or those petting hairy spiders for the first time in their lives? 

In this short, but hopefully inspiring post, I'll try to prove once again that there's a lot of truth hidden in this quote especially if we consider things we are afraid of banal and unimportant. Enjoy a small confession.

hiding doesn't make you invisible 

Here is my current tiny fear - I'm diving in the never-ending material from History and I'm not sure whether I manage with it on time, even if I do my best. I have got my exam in May, I really care about it and at every turn I don't follow my to-revise strategy point, I risk being overwhelmed in the nearest future.

While being overwhelmed with work, I'm always scared not to work too hard because it's easier then to suddenly loose the balance between the rest and the duties. Not very healthy. So I over-analyse my work at the time and then another tiny fear behind my back whispers to me that it's a time waste to overthink life instead of living it, so I loose the concentration again... Sounds familiar, huh?

You see, it's not the things we're actually afraid of doing, but to me what scares us is ...

> us, basically <

Us dealing with these challenges, from small to bigger ones, with hearts beating faster and thoughts turning into spiral, too. For this is different version of us - unchecked, unexpected, new.

I'd spent some more time reflecting this issue after reading this amazing confession on @lesparisiennesdumonde Instagram account, my latest favourite online discovery, who wrote this:

"I hope your life is full of -I can't believe I did this- 

than 

-I should've done it-"

Dear, how simple it was and how powerful. 

Instead of sitting hopelessly and really wasting my time on delaying my encounters with everyday fears, I took a deep breath and...

Sat and searched most of the folders on my laptop within which I keep all my victories and achievements documented. I collect them mostly because my parents asked me to do so, now I've discovered how strong source of motivation they are to me. 

If I cannot believe I did this, that, these or those, why shouldn't I manage right now? 

Although someone could described what's challenging to me as the most banal or easy thing to do, if I do it I will have another mini-success to put into my self-courage folder in my mind, right?

Whenever I fear something again, I will have a trustful place to come back.
Totally built by myself.
Isn't it simply awesome?

Take care, and please, please in this weird times - believe in yourselves, give the good example

Julia xxx

P.S. As you probably noticed this piece was posted at Monday night (blog key words fail), but trust me I was in the Sunday state of mind while writing this 🙏